Why...hello sun.

Isn't Utah simply *cough* beautiful *cough* this time of year.

I finally got OFF the fence.

Yup...I've been on it for 5 years. I've spent so much of my life analyzing things...over and over and over. I'm pretty sure it's the Libra in me. I'm indecisive. I want someone to always make decisions for me...yes...you should do that..or no...don't do that. Life's not that easy. Two weeks ago I made a HUGE decision. I walked into my doctor's office ready for a Hysterectomy. My doctor went through the different options open to me before taking this big step...but I knew in my heart...I was done. I told him I just didn't feel good. And I didn't.  During my hospital stay I was on the floor with all the new mommies...Oh great I thought....what did I do...this is a sign...a very bad one. But you know what? Everytime a baby cried...a stupid grin passed over my face. When the nurse who was helping me was called away to feed a newborn...with special new mommy instructions on how to feed him....I giggled. The truth is...I didn't want another baby....I didn't want to start my family over again. I'm happy with the family Eric and I have created. I just wasted time. I'm working on the new me...and looking forward to being an awesome grandma. I'll practice with Julie and Kris' little ones. I'm 3 days post-op and I feel GREAT! (unless it's the percocet.) Thanks for all the phone calls...the visits...the goodie baskets....but most of all...for sharing in my life.

My VT Message.

I'm not a huge fan of visiting teaching...but with a message like this...I might just love it now. =0)

In honor of my 20 year reunion .

Seriously?!?!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=51kAw4OTlA0

The above message was played Friday at my childrens elementary school. Now, I'll admit that when my boys arrived home from school to tell me about it...I was sort of listening. Then tonight...I watched the story unfold on the local news...hmmm. Then I watched the video. While I'll admit...it didn't start off bad...but then...it went completely downhill...FAST. I'm extremely disappointed in the lack of integrity displayed by school officials in allowing this to be shown. (I hope in the future you view material before it's presented). It is NOT American to be a servant to our President. I pledge NEVER to be a servant to ANY elected official. And thanks so much for leaving me to explain what some of the pledeges mean to my seven year old..back to school night should be fun.

The Climb . . .

I'm not normally a Miley Cyrus fan...but I LOVE music...and this song...touched me. Sometimes songs are just dead on...and this one is...for me. Don't tease me Kaitlyn...I know...sometimes moms just have to eat their words...

My new toy!

A Message for me....

Today I learned.....

...that I wish I was a goose....

In Church today we learned of the parable of the geese...and what we can learn from them....

1. They fly in a "V" formation....because they are able to fly faster and further...with less wind resistance.

2. The geese in the back "honk" at the geese in the front...to encourage them to keep going.

3. When the head goose gets tired....it rotates back in the wing and another goose flies point.

4. If one goose is sick or wounded...2 other geese will stay with the one...until the goose either dies...or gets better.

5. They protect each other...from those who seek to do harm.

I always enjoy the lessons taught...and the people who teach them...THANKS.

I've Been Tagged...

7 Things I Can Do:

1. Clean...my kids think I'm obsessed
2. Worry...I'm excellent at this by the way
3. Spell...Yes Julie..you too can learn =)
4. People watcher...I find people fascinating
5. Read...and understand that just cuz you checkout 7 books from the library...you don't need to read them in one night...
6. Love working out at the gym...hellooooo where are you gym partner *cough* Julie *cough*
7. Laugh....I love to laugh...it's who I am...

7 Things I Cannot Do:

1. Understand the world is NOT black and white
2. Accept my limitations
3. Sing...however my kids prefer me over Aunt Julie =)
4. Be the center of attention...*shiver*
5. Understand Photoshop...even after reading "Photoshop for Dummies" help Dad!
6. Sleep...at night that is...
7. Have my kids learn from my mistakes...not their own...

7 Things that attracted me to Eric:

1. His humor...he makes me laugh...
2. His willingness to serve others....always
3. His Education....he was in full career mode when we met...sweet
4. His age...I like older men... refer to #3.....
5. He's smart...if he doesn't know how...he'll learn
6. He's a people person...
7. He's a family man....we're in this together

7 Things I Say Most Often:

1. Brush your teeth!
2. Jackson!
3. Kaitlyn!
4. Homework now!
5. Answer the phone!
6. Let the dog out!
7. Let the dog in!

7 Celebrity Admirations:

1. Henry...really...are you surprised...
2. Stephenie Meyer...the girl can write...
3. Reese Witherspoon...what can't she do?
4. Sarah McLaughlin...If I could sing...it would be like her...
5. John Travolta...very grounded I'd say..
6. Jillian...she loves what she does...and she does it well...
7. Bill Engvall...Yup...i'd laugh with him any day...

7 Favorite Foods:

1. BBQ Chicken Salad...Zoupas is the best
2. Sloppy Joe casserole....my version...not Eric's...the kids would agree..
3. Pork Salad...Cafe Rio...
4. Dinner in a Pumpkin...a tradition...how long 'til Halloween?
5. Turkey croissant...mine are the best...I'm just sayin....
6. Anything from Paradise Bakery...
7. Raviolli stuffed with portabello mushrooms....courtesy of the Olive Garden...

7 People to Tag:

1. um...most of my friends are on Facebook...soo...if you read this...consider yourself tagged.=)

Move over Biggest Fan....

I'm the Red M & M.....

Twilight fun....

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38....again

So...I hate my birthdays...however...this year...not so bad...I didn't age this year...yup...all year long I thought I was 38...turns out...today....I'm 38...

"Rise Above This"...a very powerful message...

I watched the making of this video...and I was moved by the lead singer's story....

Sad...but true....

I Remember.....9/11

I remember where I was...

I remember what I was doing...

I remember how I felt...

I've questioned why so many times...

Because I don't understand...

Why so much pain...

Why so many lives...

This day continues to be a difficult day for me...for many reasons...I was seven months pregnant at the time...and the overwhelming sadness at bringing a child into this world with so much chaos was physically painful...My heart still goes out to those suffering such great loss.....

I love these quizes...good waste of time....

You Have Not Been Ruined by American Culture

You're nothing like the typical American. In fact, you may not be American at all. You have a broad view of the world, and you're very well informed. And while you certainly have been influenced by American culture (who hasn't?), it's not your primary influence. You take a more global philosophy with your politics, taste, and life. And you're always expanding and revising what you believe.

Has American Culture Ruined You?

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are powerful, passionate, and dominant. You have a vision of how things should be, and you do your best to make things happen. People rely on you for your strength. You are a rock to many. Underneath it all, you aren't so sure about your passions. So many ideas spark your interest, it is hard for you to get behind a select few. However, you see indecision as a sign of weakness. So you pursue your goals full force - no matter how foolish they turn out to be.

What's" the Part of You That No One Sees?

Well Crap!....

So...well about that singing and dancing post...about me being free...um...yeah...clearly not the case....hey...I'm lonely over here!...and they've only been gone..oh...about three hours...and it's early out...this was much harder than I had imagined...well really I didn't imagine it would be hard...hopefully the tears will end soon...and yes....I will still be doing that socialness thing....clearly I need help...however...I was reminded...I won't say by who....that there is plenty to do in the basement...you know...in case I get bored....he did tell me I could call him all day today..and he could help me thru the tears...but I found Julie on IM to be quite helpful...she needs me...and I need to be needed....