Yup...I've been on it for 5 years. I've spent so much of my life analyzing things...over and over and over. I'm pretty sure it's the Libra in me. I'm indecisive. I want someone to always make decisions for me...yes...you should do that..or no...don't do that. Life's not that easy. Two weeks ago I made a HUGE decision. I walked into my doctor's office ready for a Hysterectomy. My doctor went through the different options open to me before taking this big step...but I knew in my heart...I was done. I told him I just didn't feel good. And I didn't. During my hospital stay I was on the floor with all the new mommies...Oh great I thought....what did I do...this is a sign...a very bad one. But you know what? Everytime a baby cried...a stupid grin passed over my face. When the nurse who was helping me was called away to feed a newborn...with special new mommy instructions on how to feed him....I giggled. The truth is...I didn't want another baby....I didn't want to start my family over again. I'm happy with the family Eric and I have created. I just wasted time. I'm working on the new me...and looking forward to being an awesome grandma. I'll practice with Julie and Kris' little ones. I'm 3 days post-op and I feel GREAT! (unless it's the percocet.) Thanks for all the phone calls...the visits...the goodie baskets....but most of all...for sharing in my life.
